by Megan S.
I'm a nerd, a geek. This has been clear to everyone who has ever known me since at least kindergarten and patently obvious since I was 11 years old when I won the sixth grade science fair, then followed it up by winning the seventh grade science fair at age 12. I refused to enter the contest when I was 13 because I didn't want to be picked on anymore. I look back now two decades later and wish I had because I am, first and foremost, the strong woman my mother raised me to be, and I will fight against anyone teasing, peer pressuring or outright bullying me into conforming.
It may surprise a few of you to read that Stellar Four, a website devoted to all things girlie and nerdy, is a feminist website. Stellar Four, in fact, is the purest, most feminist thing I've ever done, in no small part because it fights against the subtle sexism prevalent in nerd culture.
Until very recently, reveling in science, science fiction and fantasy (being a geek) meant you were usually an outcast in mainstream society. Even now, being feminine and reveling in science, science fiction and fantasy means you are usually an outcast in geek society. Liking things that are associated with being female such as makeup or cute t-shirts are often shunned by the majority of the group. I'm not sure why that is exactly. Maybe it's because in order to have a sense of self, a sense of "us," it also means you have to have a sense of "them." In the end, it really doesn't matter why. It just is.
You know what? I love things that sparkle. I love ogling makeup and fashion. I love (failing at) baking and decorating my place. I love being crafty. I love stereotypical feminine things and get positively giddy when they also happen to be stereotypically nerdy things. Even more, I love heroines both real and imagined who kick ass and chew bubble gum, especially when they're all out of bubble gum.
This, boys and girls, is what it means to be a geek girl.